Well, here we are at Good Friday, the day we remember the sacrifice Jesus made for us on the cross. My Bible reading for this morning was from Psalms 22. It started with that familiar verse, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” But, then, it went on in verse 3 to say, “Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the one Israel praises.” The psalmist chooses to praise God even though He feels far away.
I have been feeling like God is far away from me lately. I have been praying hard over the last two weeks for Him to speak to me and I have not heard him (or at least I haven’t recognized it yet). I am at a really uncomfortable spot in my career right now. At the heart of it, I have an intense burning in my heart to use the gifts and strengths God has given me to make a difference in others lives, and I feel like I am not doing that in my current position. I was starting to make some headway in making a transition to a clinic setting, and then the COVID-19 situation happened and that is all on hold. BUT I am choosing to trust that God has a plan in all of this and that His plan is greater than mine. And I am choosing to praise Him anyway.
One thing I have started in these last two weeks is a daily gratitude practice. Every night before I go to bed, I write down 5 specific things from the day for which I am grateful. It only takes a few minutes, but it has been really helpful to end my day remembering all the good things in my life. I don’t know about you, but I’m quick to remember something really bad that happened and just overlook all the small things that brought a smile to my face. Taking the time to write out 5 statements of gratitude helps me bring my focus back to the good and I think it’s good for our brains to go to sleep thinking positive thoughts.
As Lent is coming to a close, here are some of the questions I am asking myself. I encourage you to ask and answer them too.
- If you made a lenten promise / gave something up for lent, how did you do with it? What did you learn from it? How did it help bring you closer to God? Will I continue this past Easter?
- What will I do going forward to continue to deepen my relationship with God?
- What will I STOP doing that isn’t good for me or my relationship with God?
- How can I choose more positivity?
Remember, God will NEVER leave you. Even when you can’t hear him or feel him. Even when you screw up. Even when you have doubts. He loves you SO much. Jesus went up on the cross for YOU.
If you’re wanting some extra prayer today, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I will be checking it throughout the day and I will pray for you. Another option is to go to KTIS Prayer Works (https://nwm.onlineprayerworks.com/ktis/prayers), where you can post your prayer (you can do it anonymously if you want) and then people from all over the Twin Cities (and potentially all over the world) can see it and pray for you too!